A gift has been bestowed upon me! Quality Time. We all have time. The beauty of my gift in time, is the knowledge that my time is now limited. With that, there is an awareness of quality of life!!!
Quality of life in the hospital was oppressive. It was dark & depressing. I believe I would have died if I had stayed there one more night. So, I blurted out, “I want to go home on hospice care now!!!” It must have been a shocking request for my family to hear, but they had me signed up with hospice and back at home in a few hours! I will forever be grateful that I have a family who surrounds me with love and support.
Hospice care at home has been fundamental in my new time-spectrum. The hospice staff are amazing. Everyone of them are kind and direct and honest! They are available 24 hours and have always responded quickly to our calls. This gives an enormous sense of peace in the quality time. This gives me peace that I won’t have to return to the dreaded hospital.
My thoughts above are the starting point of my new journey. With that, “Ok, I’ve the peace let’s go forward,” come a myriad of emotional thoughts barging through the brain! A month on hospice has me thinking…
I think about quality v. quantity. I think about how can I make the most of my time? I think about the after-life. I think about my children going on without me. I think about not knowing grandchildren. I think about my parents and wonder how they feel about all this. I think about all the family and friends who reach out to me and what a blessing each person is in my life.
Most of all, I think I am blessed to have time to spend with family and friends. This time on hospice is not about doom and gloom. It is a time to be with people. It is a time to be myself. It is a time, that I can allow to unfold by itself and see what the day brings!